For me, Awkward Girl’s Guide is a project I’ve been doing on and off since college. I started the Guides as a column for my college newspaper and continued blogging them here and there after. Writing Awkward Girl’s Guide has helped me own up to who I am- feelings of awkwardness and anxiety included- whether it’s always visible on the outside or not.
I’ve always been a little nervous about jumping into the Awkward Girl idea the full way. My main motivation for blogging has often come out of a desire for a new job, internship or opportunity. I have a lot of fear attached to owning my internal fears and awkwardness in a space where a future employer could see it. Would anyone want to hire an Awkward Girl? But I’ve decided that this aspect of my life makes me a good employee and at the end of my day, I am who I am.
There’s another aspect of Awkward Girl you might be wondering about… and that’s the use of the word “girl.” There has been a lot of criticism of the use of the world “girl” to disempower women. I am a grown woman who looks younger than I am, so I totally understand how words like girl can be used by men to infantilize me whether or not they know they’re doing it. And I also truly believe that the words we choose have true power.
So why Awkward “Girl” then? I’m a short, young woman with a large amount of inner child and I can’t change a lot of that whether I want to or not. But here’s the thing, I don’t need to change those things to be a productive person in the world. Young people don’t have less value and neither do small people or awkward people. Part of owning who I am through this project includes owning the parts of me that are typically looked down on and showing that others like me can be awesome.
I know that authenticity is an overdone millennial trope, but as with most tropes there is some truth and value in it. I’m here. I call adults boys and girls probably as a result of my inner child and my inner grandma. I’m an awkward girl but I’m not alone. And neither are you. Welcome to An Awkward Girl’s Guide.